One of the biggest revelations of this whole practice has been how much it’s about energy. The meditations themselves were packed with energetic references whether mental, emotional, physical or something else. As I began the experiment, I was intrigued by the images I saw behind closed eyes and within weeks the recurring buzzing in my hands was convincing me there was something to it. You’ve heard that story (here), but here are a few journal entries from the early months that reinforce the theme.
January 15th, 2021. Today was a good one! Still is. Taking a few minutes to find what I want to do. I started a guided that cleared chakras by color and then got distracted because I remembered I needed to turn on the heat at the cabin. So I went to another one — just music, Increase Focus Clarity and Positivity by Energy of Sound. It was just beats and electronic sounds and I really liked it. I asked for protection and healing and then just tried to empty my mind by saying “I am here to serve humanity” and “How can I serve!”
NOTE: “How can I serve” became something close to a daily mantra for a while.
One more thing — and this goes back to yesterday — at one point yesterday the guide created imagery of energy in the root chakra and I realized I had my hands in karate meditation in a kind of circle. I felt that energy like I was holding it, it was so strong. Today I put my hands on my legs, not touching each other. At one point I shifted and adjusted my hands and thought of how the yoga person (from a video) holds the finger and thumb in a circle when she does the meditation poses. So I closed my finger and thumb together on each hand. And now could I feel the energy — it was so electric and vibrant! I stayed with that for a long time. It was wonderful. I could feel it flowing.
January 16th, 2021. I listened to the track 11:11, which is (just noticed — so hi mom!) music, Spirit of Ascension 432 Hz.
I’m not sure what the frequencies mean. But overall a meh meditation. My FB account got hacked in the middle of the night and I’m very distracted trying to get back in.
I did have a mini “episode” last night at the cabin — was it the altitude, the alcohol... not sure. I had a bad stomach, laid down on the couch and tried to drift. My hands were on my (roiling) belly and I decided to close my thumb and finger in a circle like I did in the meditation yesterday. I imagined the energy swirling there in my midsection, moving the bad energy — out with the bad, in with the good! Eventually I dropped off, dozed, and pretty soon felt better. Good enough to go back in the bed for the rest of the night.
NOTE: In numerology 11 is a Master Number, and 11:11 is considered an angel number. I can’t tell you exactly how I got from white butterflies to owls to 11:11, but for me, it’s my mom.
April 4th, 2021. 16 min, Morning Meditation with Archangels and Medicine Wheel, by Sofia Light Jewel
It was good but got too complicated at the end. She likes to bring in so many identities it can get confusing to remember who is who and what I am trying to hold or focus on.
But I saw a golden flamed light in a circle around me, protecting me. It turned into a grid that went through me, all around me. Each archangel came down to me with their light, bathed me. I breathed in and received. Love, healing, clearing, protection. The light made a bubble around me.
But I was a little distracted, and while I could see all of this, I was not feeling it deeply. I was listening to her and to what was happening in the room, outside of the room. Very conscious in this meditation today.
One good thing was I woke up in that dreamy state and again could feel the energy — and I was able to hold it, stay in it much longer. Maybe now that I am aware of it, I can make it happen, work with it, hold it. Not sure what is the point yet but I will just keep moving in that direction and see what comes to me.
April 6th, 2021. 11:11, Matthew Jaidev Duplessie
Wasn’t super into it this morning. Started with music asking who am I and why am I here and just fidgeted and couldn’t focus really. I switched tracks. Saw 11:11 and got tingles up and down my legs. And that continued — shivers and tingles up legs, back, torso. I saw myself reaching out. I imagined embracing the energy, receiving the universe in my arms. I tried in my mind to receive my guides, my loved ones, like I was hugging each one — I couldn’t name them but knew they were there. I just basked in the energy and feeling of vibration. No tears today. Gratitude and positivity.
I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again, neurological or spiritual…I couldn’t say. But it was fascinating not only to experience it and recognize it, but to call on it when I needed it.
Interesting journey!